What's the deal California?

I was deeply saddened this morning to see that proposition 8 is likely going to pass this time around. At this point, 95% of the precincts have reported, with 48% no and 52% yes.

They are currently saying "too close to call", but I really doubt we're going to see the percentages shift enough when the remaining 5% report the results.

It is incredibly discouraging to see a state that can say African Americans are equal, but gays are not. I don't know about anyone else, but "separate but equal" is not how I define equality.

I'm now left in a place where I feel guilty that I can marry, but some of my friends cannot.
Why am I any better? Why is my love more valuable?

It really makes me want to throw up my hands and decide not to have a "big white wedding" when that time comes. After all, why should I pump my hard earned wedding money into an economy that tells me only certain kinds of love are sacred? I don't want to support that shit.

I spoke with a good friend of mine who will be deeply affected by the passing of this proposition. She recently got married, and is hoping that they will be "grandfathered in." After speaking with her, I saw that the only thing we can do now is try to look at the positive, and keep moving forward.

Supporters for NO on Prop 8 have stated that if they were defeated, they would take the issue to the supreme court. Historically, the supreme court is largely in support of non discrimination, so maybe we can turn this around.

Even if it doesn't happen there, if you look at the history of our country, discrimination always loses. That is what makes us so great.

It just takes a really long time.

When looked at in perspective to other issues, we have come a LONG way in a relatively short amount of time, and I feel confident that this battle is not over. 10 years ago, this would not have even been on the ballot, let alone with such a tiny margin between those for and against.

Ultimately, this WILL NOT stand, and we WILL prevail.

But it still hurts.