Motivation Drain

I'm really having a hard time getting motivated this semester. I still feel so burned out from the first one, that it is really difficult to find the drive necessary to do really well in the program. It's only week 3, and I'm already skimming the readings to save myself a few hours of boring reading.

This could potentially come back to bite me later. Like...right around midterms.

Placements have turned out to be a bit more complicated than anticipated. I have applied to two different places, and am waiting to find out if I can get an interview. Most people I have contacted thus far have been really difficult to get a hold of, and will not return your calls or emails for weeks. Meanwhile, the waiting list is piling up with lots people like me, wanting to interview for just a few positions.

The day before yesterday, I attended a two hour orientation for the county mental health center. Apparently, you have to attend orientation before you can even get an interview. The up side to this placement is that they can guarantee you will get paid around $12 an hour...which is far better than working for free like I would at most other places. Hey, in this economy, an extra 600 bucks or so a month couldn't hurt. The down side is that because it is a paid position, it is likely to be far more competitive. Not only that, but with budget cuts, it is entirely possible that my intended supervisor could have been laid off by the time I start this Fall.

As for my clinical experience in class, I'm not going to lie...I'm super nervous to get my first client. Three of my cohorts have been assigned clients so far, and we are just waiting to drum up enough business for everyone to get a client. It is going to be super weird sitting in front of my very first client, trying to pretend like I know exactly what I am doing all of the time.

On happier news, I'm looking forward to spending a quiet Valentine's day at home with Brian. This is our 2nd one together now, and I'm all for the idea of making something for dinner together and curling up in front of a movie. After all, Valentines day is supposed to be for being with and appreciating your loved one, and that is pretty hard to do while waiting 2 hours at your favorite restaurant just to get seated.

Furthermore, home is closer to the bedroom ;-)

Can't beat that logic!