Life Update and Weight Rundown

So, I was supposed to see my first clients last week. I, along with another student therapist, were scheduled to see a premarital couple. Usually, we see clients one on one, but with premarital it is a little different. I'm not going to lie, I was happy as hell, because seeing my first clients is pretty nerve racking. Knowing I have another therapist there to back me up if I forget something feels nice.

But they didn't show up.

SO, hopefully they will show up this week. Otherwise, I may be reassigned to another client. I was really looking forward to a premarital couple because it is a lot of psychoeducation. We get to do talks about sex and birth control...we even get to put condoms on cucumbers and everything.

bummer :(

On other news, I have officially gained TEN pounds in the last year. When it was just 2-3, I didn't really think about it much. Then I started Grad school, and when it was 5-6, it started to bother me, but not enough to do anything serious about it. Now that it is ten...well....I'm not happy one bit.

I can see the difference in my clothes, they are definitely much tighter. It's getting back to the point where I will try 4-5 things on and hate them all before I finally find something I'm ok with. The proof is in the piles of clothing I leave on the bed every day out of frustration, and then have to come back and hang back up later that evening.

I know some people are thinking "psh? ten pounds? stop complaining!" I used to think that too. But what it comes down to is that I DON'T want to go out an replace all my clothes. Not only that, but I just don't feel good or confident about my body like I did before. I want to get on this while it is 10 lbs, rather than let it get much higher like I did a few years back.

I've tried, albeit half-heatedly, to lose some weight when I was about 5-6 lbs up, but on a grad school schedule it is difficult to keep your stress levels low enough to lose very easily.

Time to stop blaming stress and get my butt back on the weight watchers points before this gets to be more than it needs to be. As soon as I get paid, I'm going to the grocery store to stock up on lots of soup, lean cuisines, healthy choice, and smart ones....whichever is on sale. With a busy schedule, these are the easiest to cook quickly while knowing how many points you are consuming.

I'm also going to have to discuss my intentions with Brian since we eat together a lot, and it isn't always super healthy. I'll take him to the store with me and have him buy some foods he likes so we don't have to be eating the same thing every time, and so I can stay within my points easier. No sense in making him eat eat lighter with me...he never needs to lose weight... and yes, I'm jealous.

I'll also need to get back to drinking 4-5 bottles of water a day too.

I'll be keeping a ticker on this page to try and keep myself accountable for sticking to things.

All in all, double bummer.